Open 906 - The Named Ones (Spectators and Dead PT)

[JupiterXV]

im only here because of my FOMO

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and also my content creator-type apology that people can look at post game except i'm not like pulling out a ukelele or anything

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oh black's gone too but that's understandable
she made a comment about how the game was just less enjoyable n she didn't wanna play anymore and it was like. that was so me

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and also my content creator-type apology that people can look at post game except i'm not like pulling out a ukelele or anything

i don't think i want to write out something in-depth bc it's too stressful for me. the gist of it:
i am not trying to excuse any of my actions. most of this is just an explanation about how i feel. sometime yesterday at around 4 pm, something happened irl and it shook me pretty significantly. thus when i reengaged in the thread at post 445 i was just. idk i was not me. i really hated it when people called my reaction to jv ate or called me hypocritical for it. i was not feeling well at the time. it really just wasn't ate because i wasn't. appealing to anyone. i genuinely felt bad like i was going to throw up like idk coming back to thread and continuing to talk wasn't something i was really capable of at the time so i didn't bother to clarify that i didn't mean what i said about jake that way. i felt like no matter how i defended myself i would just never be able to win or do anything so i self-voted because i genuinely felt that unmotivated and hopeless. i'm not saying that's the fault of anyone, everything was just really overwhelming so i decided it would be better to let people eliminate me at the time. fire knew the details of exactly what happened (irl) and that's why he was more willing to show me grace regarding the outburst i had.

even then, that doesn't excuse what happened next. i lurked in thread for a bit and posted uh. lots of things in my own pt. which are honestly. pretty concerning things. that i don't want anyone seeing. and i'm going to black them out now but i'll finish typing this later

[JupiterXV]

wifi got plugged out. In a pickle rn

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the gist of it is that i was fresh out of a panic attack at the time and not quite at emotional baseline. i thought rejoining thread would be a good idea to help ground myself but was about instantly met with jackson's posts and they felt just like very aggressive to me and i just about immediately felt dejected and unmotivated. i'm not saying you meant to be rude or aggressive JV, it was just. idk it really stung. and i think kay responded to me in the same manner that i'd probably respond to another player were i in her position. and i shouldn't have been so rude to you, kay. it was out of line and i just lashed out blindly. so i'm sorry for telling you to shut up.
that's all. i think replacing out was the right move and i'm probably going to take a break from mafia and like, actually this time
if anyone wants to contact me postgame to clear things up or idk yell at me for my shitass townplay go ahead. sorry if i ruined anyone's experiences in this game

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lots of things in my own pt. which are honestly. pretty concerning things. that i don't want anyone seeing. and i'm going to black them out now but i'll finish typing this later

FYI that PT is not going to get released lol

yeah well i need them redacted anyway purely for the sake of my own sanity

[JupiterXV]

damn the tone of some of these posts are uh
inflammatory

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gut scum halfasleep ming ill come back to this postgame and probably be wrong. while i was playing i forgor it was two scum and not three so i was solving incorrectly

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HOLY SHIT IT'S HALFASLEEP AND GIMLI ISN'TIT

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also lmao are kay and jv pocketing each other
really funny to watch some of their exchanges to be honest

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dragon can i have spoils

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if ur still awake ofc

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What the fuck is your signature too

desperately wanted to ask this question but didnt o7 jv for taking one for the team btw

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LMAOOO rip

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damn what happened i havent checked thread in eons

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honestly what the moo

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havent really been keepinmg up but post #1436 is hilarious

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1431*

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hm

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viewtopic.php?p=14138401#p14138401lmao

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i had almost forgotten that i replaced out of this game

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HOLY SHIT JACKSONS ACTUALLY CRACKED

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actually holy shit!!!!

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oh right i forgot that not everyone here knows who scum is

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idk if halfasleep disclosed

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honestly people are getting onto halfasleep super early which is INSANE

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re: piling on, fire is based about that

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nvm halfasleep said she wasnt bothered by it LMAO

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jackson and kay have been pocketing each other all game it's going to be devastatign when they sign up for a game and one of them rolls scum (< exact reason why i am no longer playing games with fire if we're not in a hydra lmao)

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jackson and kay have been pocketing each other all game it's going to be devastatign when they sign up for a game and one of them rolls scum (< exact reason why i am no longer playing games with fire if we're not in a hydra lmao)

incredibly tangential but this exact thing happened in another game DE modded where fire rolled scum and i just hopped right into his pocket

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i think gimli was a good d1 lim (no offense gimli!) for gamestate tbh, and the jake kill's definitely been more protown than not

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yay town

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fully caught up
cannot believe i spent like the past 30 minutes reading thread of a mafia game instead of writing my essay lol

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jake: yeah, i am

I'm also really tired of meta reads

btw after this game in particular I literally could not /in and be scum and not be immediately in trouble by players that know me, since I had a 2 game run - this and the other game were kage/dann were scum - where I tried superhard to both solve and connect to people, failed at doing that, and now have a clear discernible way of playing d1 in such a painfully difficult manner that I'm either a townie annoying many slots or I'm scum because I'm not doing that, both losing scenarios for me

I'm probably returning at end of year under an alt

haha mood. my townplay homestly sucks and i think ironically that i'm way more townread as scum. i think i'm only going to ever play with fire under our hydra from here on out

[JupiterXV]

i'll miss you though! see you eventually gimli

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I'm also really tired of meta reads

i personally like them but only when people townread me using meta because who doesn't like being townread

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fires posts in thread r so funny i love reading them. insert stock sound of a dreamy sigh followed by loud airhorn